Goodbye note to Lena@MW

As someone has mentioned in this forum already, Lena is leaving at the end of the month (she told me 28th to be exact).  This is not meant to be a graphic review of any sort, I've reviewed her before and you guys can sure look up mine and other bros' reviews on her.  This is meant to be a writeup on how I feel about my time with her and express my feelings and say goodbye (as I cannot really tell all my friends these things) to one of the few MMs that I connected with the most.  I want to first say that I am not delusional, I understand seeing MMs are a business, they provide you with a fantasy and that's it.  I've been seeing MMs from all over the world for the past 7 years, ladies of all different race, some are pornstars that you and I have seen in videos, some are just doing it to support a family, some do it for fun.  I do not live in Toronto area as some of you know, but whenever I get a chance to go there, I usually book 2-3 MMs a day for an eventful weekend to say the least.  I was in Toronto this past weekend, I spent the few days before researching in this and other forums (as usual) to see who I should see besides Lena.  Yes, besides Lena, because I was gonna see her for sure.  Actually, part of the main motivation to get myself approval on this 'business trip' from my boss is to see Lena...and I didn't even know she was leaving at the time.  I texted with the MW booker the day before, they were nice enough to let me see her as her first client of the day (I know the usual protocal is to call the day of, so I really appreciated what they did as an exception). I was psyched on my way to the familiar apartment building (saw her 3 times in a weekend back in November) as she was exactly my type of girl.  I know there's reviews here from other bros saying how she's 'cold' or can be 'hot and cold' with attitude, but I've never had a problem with any of that. If anything, I think she's just quiet and misunderstood.  There are girls who will tell you their life story in the hour, there are girls who praise you as the most handsome or has the biggest penis she's ever seen for a chinese, she's just not one of those girls.  She's just more private and harder to get a hold of what she's thinking, but at the same time, she doesn't want to appear fake.  When I got in the unit, she looked at me with those beautiful eyes for about 2 seconds...and then says 'oh it's you!'...I can't believed that she remembered me and I can sense some excitement and joy in her voice.  On our way to the shower, she mentions that she will be done soon, and that she remembers I don't live in Toronto so this might be the last time we meet.  At that moment, my heart sank so hard, because I know I have another 'business trip' in a month or two and was already looking forward to seeing her again.  I was without words for a few moments, except to mutter out the usual 'that's too bad, I really enjoyed our time together, hope you are happy back in Korea...etc.' and the usual questions...'are you coming back? (likely not), what are you doing back home? (rest), etc.'  So we proceed to the usual routine of SF2, PS, water flute in the bathroom, PS, BBBJ, dt, and the usual positions in the bedroom.  Except this time, I tried to relish every moment of it, we DFK pretty much the whole time and she looks at me with those eyes and smile at me when I crack a corny jokes of two.  I really was still in shock of her leaving during the whole hour and didn't know what to say.  We said our goodbyes and she smiles at me wishing me well for the final time... Except it wasn't the final time.  Shortly after I left, I came to my senses (if you want to call it that), and texted the booker again and book her that very evening as her final client of the day.  I looked at my schedule, knowing I won't have time to see her again on this trip (which means forever) and really wanted to say goodbye one last time.  I was hoping all day that she wouldn't be shocked and feel awkward (creeper seeing same MM twice a day).  When I got there at midnight, she was a little surprised and gave me one of those devilish/cute smile of hers.  I told her this is definitely the final time and I wanted to say a proper goodbye to her.  The rest of that hour was same as every other session with her except that it felt even more intimate, the menu is the same, but the DFKs and action just felt (to me anyway) more intense.  After I had shot, we laid there holding each other for 20 minutes, having some small talks.  I told her many bros thinks she's 'cold', but I think she's just quiet and is just perfect for me.  She agrees that she's quiet and don't understand the language sometimes.  When we were holding each other, I looked at her eyes and mentioned to her that her eyes are getting red, I asked if she was tired.  She replies 'no, but definitely needs rest after leaving Toronto', my heart felt hurting for her.  I told her I liked her very much even though I understand none of this is real, it's a fantasy, but if I was ever to settle down with a woman, I would look for someone like her.  I told her I might not be able to find someone with her beauty and sexiness, but I want to find someone who is quiet, but looks and smile at me at the perfect moment that melts my heart.  On the way out, I wished her best of luck back home, I told her to get some rest and try to smoke less, she smiled, kissed me, and thanked me for seeing her and that she always feels very comfortable with me everytime, she wishes me luck to find someone like her and says we might meet again.  I can feel that she was being genuine, except the last part, I can feel from her voice that she wasn't coming back, that she will be back to her own private life, putting this all behind her.  After I walked out the door, she sneaked her head out to look and smile at me one final time before closing it, closing the final chapter of this fantasy.