Low self esteem?

Anyone here expect for me has some kind of low self esteem? I have what you call "baby face" type. I am at the age of 30+ but has a face like 20-23 ... everytime i enter mm condo, i smile and right away i know what mm is thinking.. "how old is this person".. "is he legal??".. that look really turns me off right away.. Even after "businese" they would always ask!! 100%!! I have NEVER had a mm not ask for my age yet.. "how old are you?" i would just lie and say 28.. if i was to say im 30+ i think they'll just smile thinking "bullshit!".. If that wasnt my worries.. Im a paranoid person myself too.. but i wont get to that.. anyways you can see where i am getting at here.. babyface + paranoid + stressed at work = LOW SELF ESTEEM.. Sometime i cant even get it up when given a BBBJ.. mm would look at me and say "you ok?" I would be like... yeah..  leaving with just hug and kisses.. leaving mm with unfinish "businese" kills me! I just might start taking viagra .... ... while..  anyone else has some kind of low self esteem, care to share?